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    ...my name is Regine. birthday on o422. female. 18 yrs young. reppin` 703 also known as north vA. Taken since 0712`06. Filipino. i go to NoVA. Catholic. part of YFC. Taurus, Snake. ex-violinist (not that i didnt love it). soccer player. graphic designin`. webpage makin`. i listen to rock, rap, trance...etc, all but country. i am the numba 1 PIRATE. wanna know anything else? IM me...
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Monday, December 03, 2007

i feel so lonely.  i'm hurt.  i'm sad.  i'm angry.

we're not talking anymore.  we were really good to each other for a week; no fighting, no cursing, only nice words and laughter.  then he messed it up and didnt bother to fix it.  so i told him i'm done. and i'm going to move on and that even if it hurts, i can never speak to him again.

and as i'm typing this, it's hurting and breaking my heart because he's ok with it and turned it around so that now he's angry at me.  he has no right to be.  but whatever.

with finals coming up, i can't think about him right now.  i wont let myself.  because when i do, i can stare at a screen for hours hoping my email will updating with something he sent me.  but i cant waste time like that, and it's not like it would happen anyways.

i dont want to move on, and it makes me cry every time i think about doing it, but i know i HAVE to.
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Jon McLaughlin - So Close
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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

whatever i write here will come true...

i will have the strength to get over him... i will have the strength to stop calling him and to stop giving a shit.

i will become who i was once before... and will find the happiness i once had.

(we're not even separated and i'm writing this... but we're not together either... yet he still makes me cry and break down like no one has ever had)

[Edit--8:33pm]:: i lied.. i guess we are over now.. "just friends"... i feel so ashamed of what i did yesterday...

he's never gonna be the person i once knew before...


Sunday, September 23, 2007

[Music]:: nothing
[Chatting with]:: no one
[Mood]:: sad

priority 1- family
priority 2- school
priority 3- work
priority 4- car
priority 5- ME

yeah i'm way down there on his list of priorities.. and he finally said it to me today. thanx, it means so much.

i think i'm single now... i mean techically the title for the past month has been single but it hasnt really been "single"
i dunno... he's tired of me rubbing it in his face... how he doesnt have time for me or never sees me anymore... he really just wants me to leave him alone... he has a new life now, and i guess i'm not in it.


Sunday, September 09, 2007

[Music]:: Vanessa Hudgens- Rather be with You
[Chatting with]:: no one
[Mood]:: irritated...

Here are the pix i promised you! My Philippine trip, summer of 2007


She is me. My fav. cousin in my fav. store in the PI.

...everyone is always on their cellphones...

My first dinner in the PI, all my cousins who live there...

see always on our cellphones...

The relatives on my mom's side.. we ate at Little Asia.

The cousins again.. i love this picture. i love them

Chill time at Jig's house... i was tiiiired

my cousin's 21st birthday


view from the place we stayed at before tita's wedding.. condo-hotel.
the pool area at the roof top of that building.. krisel and I in the jacuzzi.

gorgeous pool right?

I HAD to come here...

The hut village place we were SUPPOSE to stay at... but it was just too grimy...

I love this picture i took, it was at the hotel resort we moved into since we didnt like the huts... (night shot).

(Day shot) still pretty

We went to the beach that morning.. private beach, which means no people!

Gorgeous beach huh? i loooved the view... i coulda stayed there forever.

(this picture speaks for itself..)

we're tanning

... so did i mention i love her?


billiards with Jig.. fun

my drink! a blow job

Mark and I met up...

All of my cousin's friends, Mark and I clubbing

that place was packed...

me, at Tagaytay.

Kuya Joseph, Tita and I at Tagaytay

hehe the visitor's center

Adrienne found me! ahaha at Greenhills... i took a picture of the moment.


Sam and I at Villa Escodero.. i love the scenery here..

YAY for the Jeepney!

They had an awesome historical museum/church place...

the waterfalls, gorgeous huh? we got to eat in it...

...see our feet were in the water.. refreshing

me modeling in front of the waterfall.. so pretty

we pretended to be supermodels!

awesome filipino show.. with a pretty cool band

they gave this to us! now that's origami...

the show told the history of the Philippines

...this is kayaking... FILIPINO STYLE! woooo

The closest picture i've ever taken to a volcano... how cool.
alot more has happened lately... i dont feel like writing it haha.. maybe in due time.


Thursday, August 16, 2007

[Music]:: Hairspray- Without Love
[Chatting with]:: PSH who uses chat? LOL jk.. i dont.
[Mood]:: excited

it's been a pretty interesting summer... GOD it's been WAY too long since i've written in this thing... i was looking over my drop down URL list thingie.. and i noticed that xanga was missing from that (considering before it was there..) so i added it back there and decided to write a little something or other haha

hm lets see.. AH lets go WAY back...
  • For Valentine's Day Aris and I went sledding because we got that day off... then he treated me for dinner that night.
  • Many anniversaries with us cooking or eating out haha
  • I had a party at my house for my 18th birthday... no big debut thing... i wish i did but with school and all.. i didnt have time to plan.
  • SO much of my time was taken up because of Class Council... oh well it was worth it in the end.
  • We all had to endure hell week with all them AP tests... POO TO COLLEGEBOARD
  • Flip fest
  • ahhhhhhh so many great memories... School carnival, picnic, Hershey Park...
  • I was exempt from all my final exams and that made me a HAPPY little girl.. i didnt go to school for like 2 weeks..
  • i was kicked out of my house and alota shit when down... HA
  • GRADUATION!
  • PHILIPPINES! i was there for a whole month... (alota stuff happened there...)
  • OUR 1 year anniversary...
  • BBQ with old friends... way back from elementary school..
what to say? I'm going to NoVA for college... then transferring to VA Tech afterwards... uhh i'm majoring in Computer Engineering / Programming (with side classes in Web Design) <== as u can tell i have many options and am not really sure which way to go haha (well i have an idea) I start school next wednesday..

I cant believe that everyone is leaving already... I look at facebook status' and so many people are all just ready to go... it's rather saddening when i think about it... God all the memories i have with so many of these people.. and so many of them are leaving..

I finally got freaking blue bedsheets for my room.. and i kinda redecorated it... i'm looooving my room right now hehe...

i've been so artistically dead for SO long and finally i've regained something and am making stuff again

oh i quit Micky D's and am now seeking a new job... yep. I need one like NOW... i keep spending money yet i'm not making any... HA!

my parents got a new car.. so YAY ME.

I'm going to the beach this weekend -- I needa go clubbing soon -- I wanna hit up the amusement park before i start school aaaaaaaaaaand I really needa spend like 3 days with Krisel before she leaves.

Aris and I are doing good... for the most part i guess... i'm trying.. lets just say that... it's HARD but i'm trying... i'm apologizing more... ha.. i dunno... our relationship is too confusing to explain... but we love each other

i'll go more indepth soon... PROMISE. and along with those entries will come pictures... i have some time so yeah i can do that haha



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